Song: How Deep Is Your Love

I know your eyes in the morning sun
I feel you touch me in the pouring rain
And the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again

And you come to me on a summer breeze
Keep me warm in your love and then softly leave
And it's me you need to show ....

How deep is your love? (how deep is your love?)
I really need to learn
'Cause we're living in a world of fools
Breaking us down
When they all should let us be
We belong to you and me

I believe in you
You know the door to my very soul
You're the light in my deepest darkest hour
You're my saviour when I fall
And you may not think
I care for you
When you know down inside
That I really do
And it's me you need to show ....

How deep is your love? (how deep is your love?)
I really need to learn
'Cause we're living in a world of fools
Breaking us down
When they all should let us be
We belong to you and me

How deep is your love? (how deep is your love?)
I really need to learn
'Cause we're living in a world of fools
Breaking us down
When they all should let us be
We belong to you and me

How deep is your love? (how deep is your love?)

- Bee Gees -


Hmmm...Dolphin was suddenly lost in thought.When was the last time he said that to her? Long time....Time flies.Dolphin shook his head, as if to remove the thought from his head. Time to concentrate on work.Loads of stuff to go through. It's goona take some time,collegues told him, but dolphin was in a hurry.He wanted to start as soon as possible and get on with it.Dolphin finished three reports in two hours flat.Took a break and had a hot cuppa of lemon tea.Ahhhhh.. refreshing. Chatted with friends for some time. Back to work.God i have been with this issue for 4 hours no solution in sight.Dolphin needed a tea break,but it's 8.30pm time for dinner.He has been in the office for twelve hours now.Dolphin wondered if he wanted to go home, but what will he do there? TV? Friday night, boring movies on HBO.He decided to stick for maybe another two-three hours.

Scriptures of Life

Of Life

Along the trails of time,
Among flesh and blood,
Appear divine sparks of life,
And new souls unfold.

Of Living

You and I in the cold,
Impatient through the years,
All along the world muted,
There we were spotting stars.

Of Love

Sometimes in the evening,
During those warm years,
We crossed path dreaming,
Unknowingly finding tears.

Of Death

Walking along paths and valleys,
Clinging anxiously to destiny,
One part of soul willingly flies,
To the courtroom of Gods for eternity.


Dolphin wondered if he had met her four or five years back, would have things been different?Would they been happy together?This is one puzzle he was yet to crack.He knew her memories would last his lifetime. This one won't go away that easy.There will always be people around him who will talk about her, only if they knew.Dolphin knows this time he cannot run away, cos there is nowhere he could hide.
Dolphin has been calling all his friends all morning,afternoon and evening, feeling lonely as usual.Pushing and coax·ing them for a night out on the beach on new year's eve. Just a fire, friends to talk to, the sound of crashing waves somewhere and a gentle breeze blowing through his hair.He really wanted this. Mangalore seems a good idea friends told him.New year by the sea is fixed the place is yet to be decided.

Movies

"It was the spirit of it -- the spirit of the exquisite romantic pain. The idea that the mere touching of a woman's hand would suffice. The idea that seeing her across the room would keep him alive for another year."

- From the movie "The Age of Innocence" -


Dolphin got up early this morning. Its 12 days to Christmas. Lots of cleaning to do :) . He washed his clothes, scrubbed the kitchen,cleaned his bedroom and then he saw them, pictures, her pictures. The trip to goa, walking in the beach hand-in-hand, running on the beach to catch the next big wave,drinking bear in the shacks watching the sun go down, making love, talking in whispers all through the night and then dosing off with the first beak of dawn.

Damn, he scolded himself for touching the suitcases. Don't go near them, don't touch them.They can kill you , a voice kept telling him.

Dream of the Dolphin

In the vast blue sea
A silhouette glances by
Dreams broken
and forgotten.

A face he can't erase
Her fragrance he can forget

The demons
He has to fight
To keep in sane
To keep himself awake
That he may not
Dream her face again

Lonely is the place
He likes,
Silence is the world
He fears.

You can see him Smile
Sometimes,

Dreaming her smile
Waiting for her touch,
A kiss.

To break away
His heart gone cold
Holding him prisoner
That he might
Breathe again someday


Dolphin looks out of the window. Beautiful evening , it just rained and there's a cold chill in the wind.A sense of loss a, sense of detachment. Dolphin stares at the sky, trying to look for something.

Moon

A Sonnet of the Moon
Look how the pale queen of the silent night

Doth cause the ocean to attend upon her,

And he, as long as she is in his sight,

With her full tide is ready her to honor.

But when the silver waggon of the moon

Is mounted up so high he cannot follow,

The sea calls home his crystal waves to moan,

And with low ebb doth manifest his sorrow.

So you that are the sovereign of my heart

Have all my joys attending on your will;

My joys low-ebbing when you do depart,

When you return their tide my heart doth fill.

So as you come and as you do depart,

Joys ebb and flow within my tender heart.

~ Charles Best ~

Dec 9, 2005 00:15 hrs . Driving to Office on a beautiful moonlit night near ulsoor lake.

Moving On

Put down my papers in my present company today.New Year's gonna be in a new place new company, hmmm.......Thinking what else is left in this life to see....
Miss my friends a lot......I have been sleeping a lot less, even my bro feels the same, told mom about it. Mom as ususal has the remedy for everything - GET MARRIED ! I wish it was that simple. Can you imagine all the problems in the world vanishing because we all decide to get married and settle down. I don't consider myself the marriage material u know...too wild to settle down. God if there flights to Mars or Jupiter, i would take the first one out of here. Talking of Jupiter, i was listening to "Drops of Jupiter" by Train, Hmmm what a song...man if i ever want to fall in love, it's gonna be with someone like that.

I met some of the guys i gonna a work in the new company, god all they talk about is their wife,kids and how much investment they made in which stock.....they don't even go to coffee day for a cuppa of coffee.....i am already having nightmares thinking about it...So i have decided to stick to some bachelors PERIOD.

Blogging

I have been searching blogs for quite some time now. Some of the favorite lines i have come across are as below. They are quite interesting.

"Life is a storm, my young friend. You'll bask in the sunlight one moment...
...be shattered on the rocks the next. What makes you a man is what you do when that storm comes. You must look into that storm and shout as you did in Rome. Do your worst, for I will do mine! Then the fates will know you as we know you: as Dolphin, the man"

"Tell me the dreams that you have let slip right through your hands"

"If all our fate were in my hands would it be enough to undertsand y we feel lost in a world so small - if only love could find us all..."

"Love is a chill up your spine that catches you unaware and leaves you tingling"

"I don't really have any secrets, she told me once. I just forget a lot."

"Sometimes on the way to a dream you get lost and find a new one"